Temporary Setbacks...

"Failure?  I never encountered it. All I ever met were temporary setbacks" -Unknown

I have always been a big believer of  "everything happens for a reason".  Good or bad.  I know that I have a path that has been set for me and there are going to be obstacles that I have to overcome.   I have overcome several challenges these last seven years.  My oldest brother Randy went to sleep and never woke up at the age off 33.  The doctors thought he had an allergic reaction to medicine. When he passed away I left school and moved back to Colorado to help my parents with my nephew and be there for him while he was dealing with the loss of his dad.  My other brother Shawn died a year ago on Christmas Eve after a year long battle of cancer.  He was only 30 and was diagnosed with lung, liver and colon cancer.  Never once did Shawn ever get mad, angry or question why he was diagnosed with cancer.  He faced the cancer head on and fought with every ounce of effort he had.  I learned a lot from both my brothers that I try to remember everyday.  They would both remind me that you should live everyday to the fullest, don't have any regrets and remember to smile.  No matter what kind of day I am having I always try to keep this fresh in my memory. I tell myself that no matter how bad of day I am having I should always be thankful that I have been given that day.  Next month would have been my brother's Shawns 32nd birthday and will be 7 years since Randy has passed away.  I still find myself frustrated that I don't have them here to share the simplest things with. They are not here to see my house, or to watch a movie with or just to sit and remember the "good ole days".  I think that is what gets to me most, but then I have to remind myself  that they are smiling down and so proud of the things that I am accomplishing.  All my brothers have always been my biggest supporters and i know that they are cheering me on. My brother TJ has stepped and taken the role of all three brothers and is always there for me good or bad.

I promised all of my brothers that I will lose the weight and will make them proud.  The last thing my brother Shawn told me before he passed away was " to be my stubborn, ornery self and I will succeed at everything I set my mind to."  So far this has come in handy.  I refuse to let anything get the best of me.  I have been having some pain and bruising in my foot and shin over the last week or so.  Me being the stubborn girl that I can be I kept saying that it will go away.  Well today I finally gave in and went to the doctor, they took a set of four x-rays and each one being responded with a weird look from the doctor.  As my doctor was going over the x-rays with me she told me that I have a fracture on my foot and I tore three ligaments in my foot and leg.  I was not thrilled to hear this especially with my first 5k on Saturday.  She told me that I may get by with a boot for about 4 weeks and physical therapy for 3-6 months or I may have to have a cast for 10-12 weeks.  So as you can imagine I was frustrated that I was unable to run on Saturday but how long beyond that?  The doctor told me I can still exercise but I am looking at about 6 weeks before I can run depending on the physical therapy goes to repair my ligaments.  A part of me just wanted to give up but then logic stepped back in and I am lucky to have this day to be frustrated about my foot and I will get passed this.  I will just have to change some things around but I am not going to quite and I am going to face this and plow ahead and get back to where I can run again.  I go in on Friday to get fitted for a boot and will also find out if I will have to have a cast.

Even though this is not what I wanted to hear I have to remember that it is just a temporary set-back and it was part of my path and happened for a reason.  I may never know why but it did and I will take it as a challenge.  My brothers never gave up in life and I wont give up on achieving my goals and keep going strong.  Even though I can't run on Saturday I still want to be a part of the team, so I will be walking the 5K instead.  I hope that this injury heals fast and I will be back and training for my second 5k in no time.